Exploding Murderer

Every time I'm in a lecture class I feel like I'm just going to explode. Piss and shit and burp and have a heart attack right in the middle of my teacher's sentence. And that would be it. I don't know why. I guess it's the silence of 200 people that makes me think I'm gonna fart all over myself.

Also, I keep having dreams that I kill people. But the actual killing isn't important. The whole focus of the dreams is my fear of being caught and trying to figure out what to do with the body. It's seriously the WORST feeling. I've had these dreams at least once a week for the past six weeks. Am I a murderer? But seriously, don't you think you just gotta burn the body? WHY AM I A MURDERER?